I barely see myself as an artist.

Someone that just picked up Aseprite and fucked around not knowing how to add perspective or shade properly. Over the years I've been haunted with this thought, it never goes away and it grows as I hit publish with every piece I've drawn. Doubt sets in, confidence withers and I walk away feeling less skillful than an hour ago never growing at all. Don't get me wrong, I still love drawing and art block is always a bitch but you can always take a sledgehammer to the block, but as of late I've been really struggling to see a point. A metaphorical light at the end of the tunnel. I'm struggling to put this into words but I've drawn so much "slop". I'm tired of it and I need to improve. I want to undertake a real honest to god journey to improve not only my art but myself in the process. I'm not exactly mentally healthy (undiagnosed depression and whatnot) and it's about time I use art as a means to push that away from me. The cloud has been hovering over my head for far too long and it's about time I use the tools at my disposal to make things right. I know I can improve and I know it'll take time but I'm in a rut financially and skillfully and YT tutorials can only give me so much to work on.

I don't know what to do and who to ask for direction and considering I'm an NSFW creator. I'm scared but also eager to see the future